I live somewhere in berangan area with my usu.
i mean, during this school holiday.

november update.

it has been a while i dont update my blog..
maybe it is true then..
"LESS UPDATES, LESS STALKER"
haha.. there is no such thing..

today is the 3rd day of holiday..
tomorrow, I'll be going to Temburong for the Outward Bound course..
maigad..
it's gonna be my new experience..
my first camping i guess..
hahaa..
and I will meet my dad tomorrow..

oh yeah.. he might buy n97 for me next week..
MIGHT!!
haahaa..
i have been waiting for it since october..
maigad!!
long time!!
okay okay.. i think that's all..
will update my blog next time.. good bye..

mizah and me

Nokia N97

I am gonna get this phone very very soon.
tunggu jaa yer..

Lentera Senandung Budaya

This photo was taken masa sambutan hari raya aidilfitri anjuran Jabatan Belia Dan Sukan Tutong pada 9hb Oktober 2009 yang lalu.

me!!

Danialicious

Taylor Swift

Milik siapakah gadis ini?
hehe..
she's my favourite artiste..

Bazilah & Me

Briefing at Sekolah Yayasan

yeah.. i am one of the selected students BUT..
the requirement is.. almost impossible..
I must get AAA at A Level in order to enter the University.
and this sounds.. DAMN!!
besides that..
applicants have to pass pre-tests and also the interview..
hehee.. =)

Momsick!!

It's 2am+..
I was woken up by I-don't-know..
and I cried.. missing my mother so badly..
oh god, i cant stand anymore..
i just don't know how to face my mornings without a kiss from my mother..
it was a kind of routine.. or i could say, a habit..
BUT now, no one could do that to me..
no one..
it is like in every second, i cant forget my mom..
not at all..
my advice to some people yang kadang kadang benci ia punya parents,
please.. dont.. jangan..
once kamu kehilangan, it is not easy to face that..
hargai ur parents bebanar..
I dont mean that I inda hargai my parents before this..
i never hate my parents.. never..

huhu.. done with that..
moving on..

my mother was hospitalized for more than 2 months..
from a statement of the death certificate, my mom menderita penyakit Leukimia for one year!!
not only Leukimia, but also some other penyakits..
oh god, she didnt tell us that!!

it was a kind of fact..
she knew that she was gonna pass away before ia ke Johor msa tu..
that's why ia 'bekaras' kan belayar dlam keadaan sakit sekali pun..
how come i didnt realize that..
di dalam bilik my mom,
ada dilekatkan arh dinding, 'tanda-tanda 100 hari sebelum meninggal, ...' something like that..
and also,
she bought a lot of books pasal 'menjauhi azab kubur'.. something like that..

I cant stand..
everytime I think about her..
hati sedih.. air mata mcm nak keluar..

sebelum masuk ICU..
my mom bgtauu bestfriendnyaa..
ia nampak roh mulah nene melagau memanggil ia balik..
and..
pada malam my mom meninggal,
my nene laki yang di sungai teraban KB mimpi ia..
since my mom tu menantu kesayangannyaa..
Ya Allah, berkuasa sungguh..

masa detik terakhir tu,
I was the one yang membacakan shahadah..
and msa nurse announced yg my mom sudah nadaa..
hanya tuhan yang tau canaa rasanyaa..
and
msa memandikan my mom..
my sis izzah and zaza ikut..
but my sis izzah pengsan..
oh god, i couldnt do anything but crying..
aku kesian liat my sis..
ia tahan ia pnya nanesh..
if aku, aku inda dpt tahan tuu..

tapi aku bersyukur,
sebab.. my mom meninggal pada malam jumaat dan pada sepuluh malam terakhir bulan ramadhan..
before kana hantar ke rumah my uncle..
nurse ckp yg muka my mom tu nampak berseri-seri msa kana mandikan..
mudahan roh my mom dicucuri rahmat.. amin..

Al-Fatihah..